What is Love?
Let’s start with a question of what love really is. I am sure that people have very different definitions of this word. Some people would say that I hit you because I care, and therefore, love is punishment—I don’t believe that. It took me a while to start to grasp love as a concept and strip away the lies that I was told throughout my life about love, kindness, and service.
Love hurts, love is sacrifice, love is suffering. These were ideas I used to believe in, but not anymore. As one of my teachers says, love is all-inclusive, and I believe this to be true based on my experience. I personally experienced the power of this. Love turned hate, shame, and blame into acceptance, gratitude, and joy, and this in itself is a miracle.
Walking the plant medicine path, Ayahuasca-assisted therapy, and working with the Mother Ayahuasca have opened my eyes. It expanded my awareness so I could see myself from a higher perspective. In turn, this allowed me to embrace myself with compassion and love. This was my first powerful experience of the healing power of love. I understood how when we heal ourselves, we bring the fragments of ourselves together, making ourselves whole again. This is a process of integration and inclusion that can be only accomplished with love and acceptance.
This power of love never ceases to amaze me and inspire me. It reminds me how powerful we are and how we can make the impossible happen. How we can overcome the unspeakable and not just survive but thrive again in this beautiful life?
What is Not Love?
When we are in a state of trauma and blame, and we hold emotions like sadness, resentment, and anger, we cannot connect with this love. What plant medicine helped me with the most was to see certain events of my past from a higher, more detached perspective and to understand the deeper reasons behind a chain of events. In other words, I could make peace with my past and let go of my blame, guilt, and shame. I could let go of the never-ending fear and worry that I did something wrong. I could distance myself from the idea that I am somehow faulty, not good enough to be happy, not deserving.
For a long time, I thought punishment was an expression of love. And so, I learned to punish myself inside, not leaving any visible scars. It took a long time for me to understand that this was not love at all.
Violence is not love, power over others is not love, and sacrificing yourself is not love—not at all. Love can’t hurt me. Love is the opposite of pain. I felt like a veil had been lifted, and I could see clearly again.
Now, it seems silly that I ever believed in those lies, but most of us did. We were convinced when we were kids, and we believed everything without discerning.
The Longest Path is Between the Head and the Heart
Psychedelic-assisted therapy has the potential to help us open our hearts and connect with true medicine, which is love. In this context, we work with the Mother Ayahuasca in a long-term therapeutic container that is personally guided and supported. This includes the preparation and the integration outside the ceremonial space.
Plant medicine helped me to love and accept all parts of myself, the beautiful and the ugly. As I was doing this, I lost any anxiety, addictions, and compulsions. The pain from my body just vanished for good, and I truly felt I was reborn. I was a different person—not broken anymore, but most of all, I started to see myself with the eyes of acceptance and love. I saw all that I had overcome. All the past pain, all the joy, and all the heartbreak now didn’t touch me anymore. I just felt grateful, renewed, free, and infinitely loved.
This love touched not only me—I started to feel at peace with my parents and my family. I could see their lives with compassionate eyes. Now, I could understand that nothing is really personal. I could feel the love between us underneath all of the pain and suffering. Since then, I connect to that love every day and bring that into my relationship with my parents every time we interact. I feel deep acceptance of myself, of them, and of everything that happened.
You Are a Spiritual Being
The Mother Ayahuasca showed me that I am just a spiritual being having a human experience like everybody else. I am not better or worse, nor am I a sinner or a saint. I am a unique expression of the divine, full of love and potential. Most importantly, I have the gift of choice.
Free will to create as you wish, both consciously and unconsciously. The more conscious you are, the more beautiful what you create is. This is true both individually and collectively because everything is connected. Everything is conscious and alive, and everything you do affects the life of all.
Your life is a big responsibility, honor, and privilege. Most of all, however, it’s a gift to do with as you please. You have the power to change your life!
I wish to live my life like the most beautiful ceremony and ritual with a full heart, day in and day out. My desire is to follow the voice of my heart and fulfill my destiny, find my unique path. I choose to trust and take a leap of faith every morning when I start my day. But most of all, I think loving thoughts, and I remember that I always have a choice.
“When you remember who you are, loving yourself is inevitable.“
Ayahuasca-assisted therapy proved to be an effective way to let go of lifelong suffering. It opens the heart to more love and changes the trajectory of one’s life within an incredibly short amount of time.
Working with clients in a therapeutic container with the Mother Ayahuasca allows the healing process to be deeper and significantly shorter. She helps us to access the root of our problems by expanding our awareness and breaking down natural resistance. Definitely deserving of the term breakthrough results, it’s exciting to know that we are only at the beginning of the psychedelic renaissance.
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